Five months and going strong...

This past week was my 5 month anniversary with Weight Watchers.

I'm not going to say it's EASY, because it's not.  It's not even Easy.  (OMG - cheese.  bread.  I miss you! Love, me) But what I will say is that for me it's been easier than I ever thought it would be.  What I really love about WW (and I'm 99.99% sure this is an opinion shared by everyone I know who's in the program) is the part where it's not really a diet.  It really is changing your entire way of thinking about food.

And it's NOT about not eating anything delicious ever again!!  This weekend I went to Columbus to see my girls from college and I had, in order: Greek Salad with bonus!chicken, sushi (OMG, so good!) and Chipotle.  I also had 2 Starbucks iced "skinny" Latte's for 2 pts each (mmmm - coffee.  Let me just say:  Any "diet" that will not allow you a latte is not going to work.  At least, not long term. ;)

I also spent $75 at Old Navy, bought a dress and a pair of pants in a size that I haven't worn, if I'm being honest, since at least the 9th grade, if not earlier.  The picture below is the pair of jeans I wore to my first WW weigh in on 4 Nov, 2010.  The brown pair are the ones I bought this morning at Macy's.

And the thing is?  I really do look in the mirror and see a fat girl.  And, technically, I'm still in plus sized clothing.  But I've come a really long way - I know that, mentally.  I'm wondering how many people go through this?  I'm guessing it's probably a lot more common than I'm thinking.  The phenomenon where you KNOW a thing is true but have a difficult time believing it.

I know it's true because when I sat on the chair on my parent's deck tonight my thighs were not touching the arm rests.

I know it's true because when I put on pants from pre-WW the other day they literally slid down my thighs.

But it's still difficult to really know it.

Case in point:  This weekend - when I was trying on the brown pants from the photo - I actually tried on three pairs.  The two I took into the changing room, and the pair above that friend!L was like, "no, really.  Hang on, let me go get you the next size down to try."   And I was like, "But.  No - this pair (the middle size) feels snug!  Aren't they snug?" and she sort of looked at me, walked over and grabbed a fist full of fabric on the sides. 

I know I'm not "skinny" by magazine and television standards, but I'm SO CLOSE to having a 1 as the first digit of my weight it's almost unbelievable to me.  I just need to keep reminding myself that I've lost 75 lbs since August - 60 since joining WW in November - and I'm doing great. 

One day, probably soon, the reflection in the mirror will look that way to me, I'm sure.  Or maybe, friend!A is right - and one day I'll look at a picture of the "new me" and be like, "Holy $hit - look what I did!!"

But for now - holy cow, look at my new pants! :)